lilly0 (lilly0) wrote in yume_to_ame,

Me without you Chapter 14 (Junba, Sakumiya)

Title: Me without you 14/?
Pairing: Junba, Sakumiya, Ohno/?, others possible
Rating: up to R
Genre: AU, romance
Plot: Although they are both young students at college, both the youngest brothers within three, and both part of high society, there are worlds between Jun and Masaki. Jun comes from a rich, traditional and conservative family, while Masaki's family gained wealth and fame by luck. Masaki is cheerful and enjoys life to the fullest. Jun is unusually earnest and distanced. Although part of the same glamorous world, their paths would have never crossed, they would have never even talked, but then Masaki's brothers decide he needs to catch up with his studies, and hire Jun as his tutor. With being so different it seems they will never get closer, until they realize that they both hold a sad secret.
Note: This is dedicated to yukitsubute. I had (and still have) a lot of fun writing this, and I wonder where it takes me to. I can promise you some fluff, some fun and some drama (the usual ^^) There might even be some hurt & comfort.

“I feel a bit uncomfortable here,” Masaki admits.

“Why?” Jun wants to know. His eyes widen. “Is it because of me?”

Masaki is amazed by the fact how uncertain Jun can be sometimes. It’s almost ridiculous how he can lose confidence in this aspect of his life while in other aspects he is perfectly confident and calm, but apparently being in a relationship or anything alike pushed him to his limits. “Not because of you,” Masaki shakes his head. “Why do you even say that? It’s because I don’t fit here!”

Jun looks around in surprise. “You mean into this restaurant? I thought you wanted to try something different. You even told me I should look for a restaurant I would frequent and you wouldn’t normally.”

“It’s so high class,” Masaki whispers.

“Not at all,” Jun smiles. “Look how many young people there are, some holding hands. And a lot of people with jeans. This is just a popular restaurant but not one of those dresscode-obligated restaurants, where we can’t even read the menu. It’s a normal restaurant and no one even cares who dines here as long as everyone behaves. ”

“I know,” Masaki looks around, it feels like everyone is watching him, realizing that he doesn’t belong to this world. To Jun’s world. Like what is he even thinking to date Jun. To imagine he can even remotely keep up with Jun, his beauty and his smart mind. “Still, it feels so off. I mean, don’t laugh, but you fit perfectly. Wherever you go to, no matter if it’s a concert or a dinner party or a ball or a high-class restaurant or a cool hipster restaurant like this here, you just fit. You fit into everything. I on the other side am just Masaki.”

Jun frowns, his eyes getting darker all of a sudden. Masaki knows it’s not the right time to think that, but he looks so hot when he is getting angry. “Hey,” Jun huffs in a low tone. “Don’t talk yourself down ever again in front of me. I won’t let anyone say something bad about you, not even yourself.”

Masaki smiles, his heart warming at the realisation that Jun thinks so highly of him and defends him, even against himself. “I’m sorry.”

“Better be,” Jun grumbles. “Because ten minutes ago you were still scolding me for being insecure.”

Masaki nods. That’s true. He hasn’t even seen it, but although they didn’t share the same insecurities, they still had a pretty huge amount of them. “We should learn to face these things and work on them.”

“Yes,” Jun says, and his voice sounds wary all of a sudden, like he is deep in thought. Masaki frowns, he knows this look, he has seen it with Kazu years ago. Jun is not going to do something stupid, is he?

To distract Jun he shoves one of his sushi into his mouth. Jun giggles. “You idiot, what are you doing.”

Masaki grins, happy that the mood is lighter again. “These are good,” he points out casually.

Jun nods, chewing on the sushi. “Almost as good as mine,” he points out with a cheeky smirk.

Masaki laughs. “Your self-made ones are better,” he points out, secretly hoping for Jun to cook something for him again.

Jun gets the message immediately. “You just want me to cook for you,” he says with a grin.

“Totally right,” Masaki sighs. “I would eat anything you make. Like your pasta. Or the soba noodles. Oh, and the rice bowl with chicken.”

“I get it,” Jun giggles. “I’ll cook for you tomorrow.”

Masaki’s head perks up. “Really?”

“Yes, are you free?”

Masaki nods fiercely. “Of course. Should we meet are your place? Afternoon?”

“Sure, why not.” Jun looks at him almost shyly. “So, it’s a date?”

Masaki smiles brightly, his heart jumping in joy. “For me it is,” he says honestly.

Jun rewards him with a beautiful smile that sends butterflies through Masaki’s stomach. “Hey, Jun-kun,” he says after a while. “I’m going to the restroom.”

Jun nods tentatively, looking surprised when Masaki looks at him expectantly. Then however he raises his eyebrows. “Well…” he muses. “See you later.”

Masaki chuckles and gets up. He closes the door behind him, relieved that there is only one single toilet and no one else can enter. When there is knock at the door, he opens it nervously. “May I join,” Jun says innocently.

Masaki laughs and pulls him inside, closing the door behind them and kissing Jun happily. They draw apart for a moment and Jun locks the door.

“Classy,” Jun comments dryly when Masaki takes his face between his hands and pulls him closer.

“Where is the problem?” Masaki jokes. “It’s the perfect make-out place. We can cross it from our list.”

“Hm, there is a list?” Jun hums, brushing his lips over Masaki’s cheeks. “What else is on the list? Library?”

“Yes.” Masaki nods mock-earnestly. “And university. Cinema.”

“During a family meeting in the kitchen,” Jun points out.

“We did that already,” Masaki intervenes, remembering their family dinner right before his argument with Satoshi… when Jun kissed him in the kitchen.

“Oh, right,” Jun blushes slightly, before he chuckles. “So, the restroom, in between dinner and dessert.”

“We only have five minutes, maximum,” Masaki says earnestly and grabs Jun’s collar with a grin. “So… less talking.”


Takuya is still in his office when he receives a call from Higashiyama. The greeting is surprisingly short and without any teasing or banter, which immediately unsettles Takuya. “Something happened?”

“Takuya-kun,” Higashiyama says earnestly. “I’ve found a few documents from your father. You know it yourself how much of a mess he left behind. But this one is different. It concerns the inheritance he left! Believe me, you would want to take a look at it. It’s about Jun.”

Takuya sits up straight in his chair, eyebrows furrowing slightly. About Jun? He takes a look at his clock. It’s already close to 8PM. “I’m dropping by in an hour. Can you wait as long?”

“Of course,” Higashiyama agrees. “I’ll prepare everything I found meanwhile. And something to drink.”

The only things Takuya still feels able to do after this talk is giving a few last orders to his assistant and tell him to go home early enough tonight, and write Sho a message to meet him at the old office in case he has time.

One hour later he rushes through the door to his father’s old office. He hasn’t been there since years. After his father died he handled a few remaining issues there and then handed everything to Higashiyama. In fact stepping into this room again makes his heart clench and his body tense. Like he is still there.

It’s like his father is still alive. And this feeling is the most unsettling one he has encountered since forever. It’s like he expects to be called there and be beaten up for something he said or did.

“Takuya-kun.” Higashiyama smiles at him when he approaches him and Takuya feels slightly at ease again.

Gladly Sho is on time too and comes through the door right at this moment. “Oh my god,” Sho mumbles and looks around, his face carrying a distressed expression all of a sudden. Takuya figures it’s probably a mirror of his own expression. He wonders what kind of memories Sho has with this place and if they are equally bad as his.

“I’m sorry,” Higashiyama says all of a sudden. “This is probably not bringing good memories to you. To be honest, I wasn’t thinking properly. We could have also met somewhere else.”

“No,” Takuya says quietly. “We need to be able to face the past.”

“The past shouldn’t dictate your present life though,” Higashiyama points out with a concerned look.

“It will only stop dictating our lives and who we are if we get over it,” Sho answers, obviously sharing Takuya’s sentiment here. “And to get over it we need to face it.”

“So, what do you have?” Takuya asks in interest.

“I’ve found the last remains of the inheritance,” Higashiyama explains while they all sit down at the round table in the middle of the room.  “Well, a lot of it got settled already years ago, gladly. But this here…” He points at a folder. “This here concerns Jun.”

“Specifically?” Sho asks in surprise.

Higashiyama nods. “You are the family lawyer, Sho-san, so I assume you should check it, but…I don’t think there are any legal problems with this.” He opens the folder, revealing a key and a document, handing it to Sho.

The latter reads through it thoughtfully, eyes widening. “A key to a bank deposit safe,” he explains. “And in it is the estate of Jun’s mother.”

“I thought everything got lost after she committed suicide. Our father said she burned everything,” Takuya states in sincere surprise, while he accepts the document Sho hands him with a thankful nod. He is stunned when he reads through it, a list is attached to it with all her possessions that are locked away in the safe. “Jewellery, family memories and…”

“Yes,” Higashiyama mumbles. “Letters, diaries. Everything Jun’s mother specifically wanted her son to have. Her will is in this folder as well.”

“He has kept all this from Jun?” Takuya asks in disbelief. “I could understand the jewellery, but he has locked away every single memory Jun could have saved from his mother, and never let him have his proper good-bye.”

“He told him that nothing remained, that she destroyed everything before she died!” Sho blurts out, eyes furrowed in anger. “Jun was crushed that there was nothing left behind, no good-bye, he thought that his mother just went away and didn’t think of him…”

“There is something else,” Higashiyama shows them another document. It’s from their bank.

“A trust fund?” Takuya asks in surprise. When his father died, he left them a lot of money. The only good he actually did for them. There was plenty of money and both he and Sho were good and dedicated in their fields of work, able to broaden their wealth. But their father didn’t think of one of them specifically, unlike Jun’s mother who apparently wanted her son to receive all her private possessions. Their father didn’t have such sentiments, probably he didn’t like his children enough. But now there is a whole bank deposit just for Jun.

“After Jun is 25 it belongs to him,” Sho mumbles while he reads through the document. “You are right. Legally it’s all approved and right. But… isn’t it strange? I mean, we have plenty of money, and father didn’t do anything alike for either of us. Seems like he really cared for Jun.”

“I’m not so sure,” Takuya says quietly. “Sounds more like he had a bad conscious.” He looks at Higashiyama. “There is something else, right?”

“Yes, a letter.” The older man hands him a letter, it’s still in its envelop. “I haven’t read it.”

Takuya swiftly opens it. It’s short, so he reads it out aloud.

Everything in this folder belongs to my youngest son, Jun. It’s enough money to ensure him a lifelong safety and a life without worry. All the private possessions of my deceased wife are safely at the bank for him to take whenever he wants to. He has the heart and the soul of his mother, who will never forgive me even in the other world for the things I did once she passed away. May they forgive me.


“It wasn’t necessary for you to do this,” Ryo repeats for the hundredth time.

“I know,” Satoshi answers. “But I want to help. Don’t question it too much, I don’t question my decisions either. We are all pretty impulsive in my family.”

Ryo has to smile at this comment. “I don’t know why you are so kind, but let me thank you.” He bows deeply until Satoshi begs him to get up again.

“This is embarrassing,” Satoshi whines. “Please stop it.”

Satoshi has helped him a lot through the last days.  He has also met his sister, Yui, a sweet young woman, only two years older than Ryo. She has asthma and was so happy about the new apartment that she almost had a little attack. It’s good for his sister, that’s why Ryo agreed to it in the end, but actually he does feel a bit surprised. He wonders what Satoshi actually wants to achieve by helping him. He always looks so guilty like he once did something to him in the past.

He also didn’t forget his promise to Satoshi of course, at least something he can give him back. He is supposed to model for him. Ryo was scared first that Satoshi wants to make a nude painting. But it’s nothing alike. Satoshi just keeps sitting in Ryo’s new living room, with his canvas in front of him and watches Ryo playing the guitar, basically panting him while he is living his normal life.

“You know, I thought you would paint me nude,” Ryo can’t help but admit, feeling really relieved though. Satoshi has explained to him that he won’t necessary paint him directly but rather will use him for inspiration. Like a muse.

Satoshi blinks, then he laughs. “Do you want me to paint you nude?” he teases.

Ryo shakes his head, blushing a bit. “I know I’m a hot beast, but no… I’d rather not.”

“Why not?” Satoshi wants to know.

“I have a scar,” Ryo admits. “I had surgery when I was a kid. And it’s nothing I’m ashamed of, but I’m not sure if I would be comfortable enough for a picture.”

Satoshi nods knowingly. He seems to understand, much to Ryo’s relief.

It’s later that evening that Ryo meets with Sho. Yes, his awkward boss Sho, who apparently wants to become more approachable to his subordinates. He told Ryo he has decided that they need to go for a drink to get to know each other and work well together. Ryo doesn’t mind. He likes Sho. He is good at his work, dedicated, pretty firm and knows what he wants, but respectful. Ryo can deal well with direct.

He doesn’t forget though to inform one of his new friends. After all Masaki and Nino were really nice to him, they are truly good-hearted guys, and if Nino has a crush on Sho, he can help him a bit by feeding him with information he gets through working together with Sho.

Nino, be at Old Owl Bar in an hour, pretend it to be a coincidence. And don’t forget to thank me later – the next ten dinners are on you.

Nino’s answer comes fast. Why? You need to have a good reason.

Trust me, you won’t regret it :P  But don’t tell your lover-boy that I blabbed! – let’s say the next twenty dinners! And dress hot!

Idiot… okay, I’ll be there.

Of course he is. Love is something weird. Ryo has to smile a bit, he hasn’t dated someone in a while, but he doesn’t mind either. For now his dear sister means the most to him, first she should be happy, then he would look for his own happiness.


Nino can’t believe his luck, a whole evening with Sho. Ryo was nice enough to inform him that they went out for a casual drink. He is also nice enough to give him room enough to talk to Sho alone after he made his coincidence-entrance. Oh my god, Sho-kun and Ryo, you are here too? It was an award-winning performance, really.

Sho is dressed in a silk black shirt and he looks so freaking fucking hot, it takes Nino’s breath away. He tries to lean forward sometimes just to take in his scent and to his joy Sho doesn’t seem to pull away, he actually even orders them drinks and food, apparently forgetting that he is here with Ryo and not with Nino.

For a moment Nino feels a bit guilty because Ryo is alone, but when the latter just winks at him and gives him the thumbs up before flirting with the pretty barkeeper, he knows it’s alright.

Nino is not someone who likes to stay out long or party, but he doesn’t mind this time. He is just hopeless, like a teen in love. At one point he even pulls Sho on the dance floor and they dance together, and suddenly there are Sho’s arms around his body, pulling him closer. Nino looks into his eyes deeply, trying to put it all in there.

“What are you doing to me?” Sho mumbles. “Putting me under your spell from the first moment on.”

Nino bends forward, deciding it’s this moment or none, and leaning forward to kiss Sho. Sho answers first, kissing Nino almost desperately, before he grabs Nino’s wrists and pulls him away softly. “This is not a good idea,” he says calmly.

He sounds neither annoyed nor unfriendly, still it makes Nino’s stomach twitch painfully. He rips his hands away from Sho’s grasp. “I’m sorry,” he stutters and turns around, rushing through the room and outside.

“No, Kazu-kun,” Sho calls after him. “Don’t go.”

Nino doesn’t hear him anymore. What he hears though is someone rushing after him, it’s Ryo. “Don’t run so fast,” Ryo whines. “Sho-san told me to immediately run after you and make sure you are well. Wait,” he grabs Nino’s wrist and stops him.

Nino flinches. “I made a fool out of myself.”

“Not at all,” Ryo pants heavily. He coughs. “Sho-san was looking completely panicked and told me he still has to pay and I should make you…” he coughs again. “Wait… and then he wants to talk to you….” Another cough. “And he looked so worried.”

“Ryo-kun?” Nino stares at him. “Are you feeling unwell? What is wrong?”

Ryo clasps his chest. “Not good with running,” he pants. “Was sick as a child. I…”

Ryo’s voice seems to trail off, and for a moment Nino believes he will collapse right here, but his eyes seem to be glued to something else. When Nino turns around he knows what it is. A few guys are approaching them, one of them is the guy that already harassed them once.

Nino looks around, of course they are in a deserted area now and it’s dark and no one around. Wow, can this evening become even better? “Yo, guys,” he tries to sound casual. “Can we help you?”

“Yes, tell us which one of you is this awful lawyer’s bitch!”

Nino frowns. This is about him. Technically he isn’t anything to Sho, but they don’t know it and they probably won’t believe him. Ryo however has nothing to do with it, he should try to make him leave. Before he can step forward though, Ryo grabs his wrist and shakes his head. “Like they would let one of us go away,” he snarls angrily. “Don’t play the hero now.” Towards the guys he just huffs a “We don’t know what you are talking, you fake-yakuza assholes!”

“Who is playing the hero now?” Nino mumbles.

“Can you fight,” Ryo wants to know. Nino shakes the head, making Ryo sigh. “Try to bite and kick as much as you can. Protect your head!”

There isn’t much more time to say something though because the guys close the circle around them. “If you don’t want to talk, we’ll beat it out of you,” one of the guys snarls.

Nino and Ryo exchange a glance. There is nothing to talk about, they both know it. These guys just want to take the chance to kick their butts and probably get back at Sho for something that’s not even his doing.

The guys chase at them all at once, and Nino tries to defend himself as good as he can, tries to dodge their fists. He is not used to working out, let alone fighting, but he gives his best. He clings to their arms, trying to bit them, and he tries not to vomit at the kicks in his stomach. Sometimes Ryo is right there to save him, he is a lot more skilled as a fighter than he is, but he is just one against a bunch. Nino tastes iron in his mouth and then one of the guy hits him with a baseball bat, making him drop to the ground.

“Nino,” Ryo coughs, his breath going heavy just as before. Nino’s sight goes dizzy but he can see Ryo coughing blood. Damn it, Nino thinks, what an evening, before the guy hits him again. This time his sight and mind goes black.

A/N Jun and Masaki are really comfortable around each other by now, aren't they? :-) And we have Sakumiya-kiss... just that Sho kind of chickened out?
Meanwhile Takuya and Sho find something concerning Jun. How do you think will he react? And Nino and Ryo... I would say they are in big troubles.
Tags: genre: au, genre: college, genre: high society, genre: hurt&comfort, genre: romance, l: multi-chapter, p: aiba masaki/matsumoto jun, p: ninomiya kazunari/sakurai sho, r: r, series: me without you
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